Meditation/Ultimate Ohm

The smallest particulars vibrate to the sound of Ohm.

I really enjoyed making the "Ohm" sound in class. Dividing it into three parts was a clever way to help us learn to make the sound properly and it was calming. Below is my reflection from my yoga notebook on the meditation.

"I had some back pain so it was a little hard to focus during the meditation, but overall I felt my body relax, not as concentrated on my breathing as the exercise probably intended, but I liked making the Ohm/Ahm sounds. When I make them it's nearly impossible to focus on anything else."

The heart quality I had chosen for the practice that day was Acceptance, and also Patience. I need to be more accepting of the circumstance in my life currently, and patient that they will work out eventually. I need to stop rushing to try to fix and patch things up quickly. Some problems and people take time to heal.

Also the back pain was resolved by the end of class that day which was a relief. I'd been very sore after Mondays exercise but I currently am not sore or in any pain anywhere so Wednesday helped to work out the kinks. Looking forward to next class!

Personal Progress

My personal progress in yoga feels slow. The teacher is doing a good job of taking us through what I assume are basic poses. She says we are a very strong class, but I personally don't feel as strong. I receive quite a deal of necessary correction in class which, though helpful makes me feel discouraged that I don't seem to naturally be very good at yoga. I do have to remember that many people have taken classes before and I am only a beginning.
My physical strength has also been tested. I find my arms and back of my thighs are very sore after yoga and the following day. Hold plank or downward facing dog poses become excessively challenging the longer we hold the pose, but I am too stubborn to relax into child's pose. I want to progress, I don't want to give up. It's a problem that I see taking child's pose during a different pose as "giving up". I should probably attempt to be more vulnerable.

The end of the classes have been very satisfying however. I am always grateful when our cool down and resting period comes. More importantly however, I've find that though I struggle to keep up with the poses during "practices" in the class, by the end when we combine them into a full routine, it comes much more naturally, my body moves more smoothly and I feel more confident in myself.

The entire affect overall has been good. I am generally not as tired afterward as I imagined I would be from how the sessions go. It does give me energy, particularly as, now that I am head long into my graphic design classes, I am averaging 4-5hrs of sleep a night :/ Not healthy, but my remedy is to catch up on the weekends and replace sleep with yoga and coffee.

Today I ran into my art professor that I'd had a bit of conflict with the day before. He had over run class time on Tuesday by 20 minutes, saving me for second to last with 15 minutes to go before my next class started. This is a 5hr class, so you can imagine my frustration that he was not able to properly manage his time to give 14 students adequate attention. My critique of my work was terribly, he ripped apart my ideas, concepts, ect. I left mid-crit to reach my other class, extremely frustrated, furious, self-righteous, angry tears pouring down my face. The following day (today) I ran into him coincidentally right after yoga. I was amazed at how calmly I was able to talk to him. He also was much more calm and less belligerent than he'd been the day before. I listened quietly to his suggestions, asked polite ways that I could reach his standards and than departed, feeling like I had new direction, encouraged, and so calm. I can't deny the affect of the previous yoga session on my mood, clarity of mind, patience with him and ability to realize that perhaps my work had not been appropriate to what he had been asking for.

Thank you yoga.

Notes, Unit 4 Intention/Dedication: Focus

Pgs. 21-26, 178

Learning to Meditate
- Hatha yoga poses originally to prepare the body for meditation, a devotional exercise of contemplation.

- The best times to meditte are just before sunrise or sunset when nature slows down.

- Try to keep your meditation time consistent

A mudra - a seal.

adi mudra - breathing

abhaya mudra - dispelling fear

agni mudra - digestive process

apan mudra - patient and serene mind

gyana mudra - calmness and clarity of mind

phyana mudra - meditation

asanas - poses.

After reading this section I assumed the pose on page 178 (which was quite comfortable) and attempted to meditate, using the apan mudra for patience and a serene mind, two things I've been struggling with lately. I scarcely lasted 5 minutes. I went into child's pose and then stretched as I've been sore from yoga and then went to bed. I will attempt to meditate sometime in the future. Emptying my mind was easy at first and then became steadily more difficult as I have a very active imagination.

Notes Unit 1-2

Book, pgs. xiii-xiv and 18-21:

asana - physical postures of yoga

pranayama - yogic breathing

mudras - yoga of the hands

Book, pgs. 1-9 and 12-16

Happiness, a desire to remember something that is a part of our very nature. Search for happiness is a search for our true selves.

Yoga does not exclude any religious practice. A way to discover more about self and relation to the universe.

"I am not my body, mind or emotions, for my body, mind and emotions change."

Tantric view closest to Christian view of the body.

Who am I?

To start at the beginning, I was born Lindsey Anne Roper, in Germantown, Philadelphia. At the age of four I moved with my family to quiet, dull country suburbs in Chester County, specifically to the tiny little-known town of Oxford. With my matriculation at Temple University I returned to Philadelphia and thus my city life began.

When at school, your major is equated nearly the same importance as your name. While my given name is always the first request for information, it is consistently followed by the desire to know my major. What am I studying? To what have I committed four years of my life, funds and attention? My answer is Graphic and Interactive Design.

The choice of major is such a crucial component in assessing another individual in this academic setting. My chosen major implies several things about myself. I have a background in art and an appreciation of aesthetic beauty. I'm realistic-choosing a major with the highest availability of jobs after graduation in the otherwise scarce job field of fine art. I am organized, competitive, informative, with a quick mind and instincts and a desire to convey information to others.

Who I am as a person has been most radically shaped by my faith in Jesus Christ for my salvation. I was introduced to Christianity at a very young age by my parents and have continued in it to this day. It brings a peace and sanity to my world that nothing else ever has or could. Belief in God and faith and trust in him brings me enjoyment of life and a compassion for my fellow man that does not come naturally. It is something I have to work at every day. I have an extreme tendency towards self absorption and Christianity forces you to step outside of yourself. As a kid I was extremely introverted and critical of others. I am a perfectionist and distrustful of others. But growing up following the teachings of the Bible, you can't remain trapped in yourself and you especially cannot think only of your best interests. I still struggle to put my interests aside and attempt to consider others first. Trusting others is still a very great struggle for me. Being a critical perfectionist makes me unable to trust others to perform up to my standards. But once I realized that life was not about be, I was able to relax. I was closed up so tight inside so I wouldn't be hurt. But hurt happens anyway. Once I relaxed and allowed people to be close to me, allowed myself to be hurt, I was able to make friends and come into relationships with others as an active participator.

My goals for Yoga are to attain clarity, calm and health. My mind is constantly going, full throttle every moment of the day. If I'm not talking or thinking I have my headphones in, absorbing sound and thoughts every moment. I want to force myself to slow down. I need to create space for the thoughts in my head to settle themselves into a clearer picture of the situations I'm in. So often my emotions and reason clash together and create a garbled array of feelings and conclusions. Through yoga I hope to force my mental processes to slow down so I can attain a clear view of my life.

Calm is another goal for yoga. I have rarely engaged in anything so calming outside of listening to music. Besides organizing my thoughts, I want to assure myself that sometimes it's okay to have no thoughts at all. For instance the first day during the resting period at the end of class, when we were supposed to lie on our mats and breath, my first thought was "At last! A chance to figure out everything I've been thinking about! Some quiet time to decide where I'm going next in life and what-" But I was interrupted by your suggestion to think only these words "Breath in, I'm breathing-Breath out, I'm breathing". That was exactly what I needed, and exactly what I did. I emptied my head of anything else except those words and the sensation of the air swelling in my lungs. It was heavenly.

Lastly I hope to improve health through yoga. Being a graphic designer, I spend a majority of my time hunched over the computer. I often worry about my back and my physical well being. I also greatly enjoy running, but during the school year find it very hard to fit into my hectic schedule. My initial draw to yoga was a way to force myself to take time for health, for exercise, for me. I want to achieve flexibility and strength through the practices of yoga.

A little more: Right now I've been listening to a lot of Matt and Kim and Simon & Garfunkle. I'm currently obsessed with the songs below. Click the links to see what kind of music I like!

The Vaccines

Julian Casablancas

D.A.N.C.E.

My favorite colors: Yellow, orange and green.

I'm a bit of a faux hipster and like to get creative with dress and hair :) (I'm in the brown glasses, my best friend is in the white)